Day 4 - Continued

It was free lunch day here at the office. I knew it was going to be. Every Thursday is. I thought I would be okay because it was Papa Gino's which is gross as we all know. It smelled so good though. So good. I didn't have any of course. I am not going to let myself down on day 4. or any of the days for that matter. It is very important that I do this. I have tried it 2 other times and stopped early. Someone on one of the Master Cleanse boards wrote something along the lines of:

"If you quit doing something you've challenged your self to do it creates a groove in your brain and you are more likely to quit other challenges. If you push yourself through and succeed with the challenge, that makes a whole new groove and then you are more likely to succeed."

I probably botched the quote horribly, but that's the gist of it. I like the idea of that. There are so many things in my life that I had set out to do and then quit. I don't like that about myself at all. This cleanse is a way for me to make a new groove. Goddess knows I need it.

At lunch today I opted out of the neighborhood walk as I was so beat last night and I think that was why. Instead I talked to S on the phone for a bit while standing in the relatively warm hall way. We got into a tiff about snack food of all things. I guess talking about food is a bad thing during the cleanse? Maybe not. It turns out S was afraid I was going to go Vegan again. I am not. I am not even going to go pescetarian like I mentioned earlier. I just want to know where my food is coming from. I also want to eat healthy and homemade. I like too many different types of food and it all means too much to me for me to limit myself again. Especially with S and I both cooking so well and so often. I really wish it was next week. Really!